After 2 + years away from blogging…. I am back. Come find me at reemeyer.com. I plan to move a few things from the beautiful blog over there eventually, but mostly I have new content. Hope you will follow along over there!
I started thinking through and writing out my thoughts on Chapter 9 (Exercise Makes Me Want to Cry – hilarious) the same day that I posted my thoughts on chapter 8 (Making Peace With the Realities of My Body). Basically: My first reading of this chapter is what got me started running, an activity which I’ve grown in and actually begun to enjoy since early March.
But I’m ditching that first draft (ignoring it completely, actually) for 2 reasons: Continue reading
This summer, I’m going through Beth Moore’s Esther study for the second time. I did it two years ago with the women’s ministry at church and LOVED it. This summer I’m with a group of leaders/future leaders in our college ministry. I’ve enjoyed studying it with a different group of women with different perspectives. But as much as I got out of it the first time through, I’ve been AMAZED at how much Esther’s story speaks to the exact circumstances in my life right now.
For starters, I’ve been really struck by one of the overarching themes in the study and the book of Esther. Esther is the one book in the Bible that never mentions God by name. Beth has repeatedly said, “His name is not in it, but it is ON IT.” I so needed this timely reminder that God is present even when He is silent. Every week, we’ve explored the concept of Providence: God’s work through circumstances and events.
I’m in a season of life – on an adventure with the Lord, really – where there are circumstances that are near and dear to my heart that are completely out of my control. Decisions are being made and will continue to be made for me and my family by people who do not even know us. Praise God for His reminder in Esther that He is at work in ways beyond our imagining. I don’t think this means that I’m promised to get exactly the outcome I’d want in this adventure – but I can REST in the reality that however circumstances work out, there is a GOOD GOD holding all things together. Praise Him. Continue reading
One of the (many) things I’ll remember about 2011 is that it’s the year that began with reading Ann Voskamp’s lovely book, One Thousand Gifts. It has now joined Hind’s Feet on High Places at the top of my favorite book list. I’ve read it twice, and was halfway through it a third time when I felt the strong prompting of the Lord to give it to someone specific. Hilariously, I’d encouraged several other friends to buy/borrow copies, but told them they couldn’t have mine because I wasn’t willing to part with it yet. And then when I GAVE it away (to someone they know, of course), they were like, “Hey!!!” Continue reading
I found chapter 8 (Making peace with the realities of my body) to be very similar to chapter 7… I probably should have blogged them together, but too late for that!
Here are some of my favorites from this chapter…
First off, there is a hilarious story from high school, totally worth the price of the book just for the “tankles” story. J It’s a great example of how a girl’s heart can totally internalize someone else’s view of her and carry it for the rest of her life. We let the world (especially boys) be our mirror of beauty, value and worth.
“Yes, eating healthy and exercising get our bodies into better shape, but we are never supposed to get the satisfaction our souls desire from our looks. Our looks are temporary; if we hitch our souls to this fleeting pursuit, we’ll quickly become disillusioned.”
“The body God has given me is good. It’s not perfect nor will it ever be… But my body is a gift, a good gift for which I am thankful. Being faithful in taking care of this gift by walking according to God’s plans gives me renewed strength to keep a healthy view of my body.”
My thoughts about this chapter (even 6 months after I read it for the first time) are a bit confused. I relate to dissatisfaction with my body, and would never say I don’t have body image issues. But this chapter is about making peace with specific parts of your appearance, coming to terms with the fact that God made you this way. I don’t really have a “tankles” issue. I’d love to be taller, sure. And I’m not in love with the fact that I don’t have much of a neck, making me very prone to double (even triple) chins (I can’t believe I’m writing this on the internet! But I promised myself I’d be honest!)
But the main thing I’ve been dissatisfied with through the years is my weight – I’ve always felt big, or at least bigger than I ought to be. And since I have been slightly–to–really overweight for as long as I can remember, I don’t think you can really say that God made me this way. It is true that I am not designed to be a size 2, and I’m naturally curvy, God made me that way.
But He didn’t make me overweight – I got this way by using food for comfort and lacking self-control with certain foods. So I’m not sure how I’m supposed to make peace with my body. Maybe as I continue to lose weight and live in victory over my food issues, I’ll be able to “find my beautiful”, as Lysa talks about in this chapter? I definitely think that I have bigger issues with defining myself according to the scale (or in comparison with others) – rather than being dissatisfied with a particular aspect of my appearance.
Another favorite quote, reposted from the early days of the blog. Here’s my original post..
I hope I’m not the only one who needs this reminder pretty regularly: The Son of Man came not to be served, but to serve and give His life as ransom for many (Matthew 10:28).
I would so love to grow in the attitudes described here this summer. Love this quote:
Luke 17:7-10 “Which of you, having a slave plowing or tending sheep, will say to him when he has come in from the field, ‘Come immediately and sit down to eat’? “But will he not say to him, ‘Prepare something for me to eat, and properly clothe yourself and serve me while I eat and drink; and afterward you may eat and drink’? “He does not thank the slave because he did the things which were commanded, does he? “So you too, when you do all the things which are commanded you, say, ‘We are unworthy slaves; we have done only that which we ought to have done.'”
5 Marks of a Bondservant: Continue reading
Today’s Wednesday quote has been one of my favorites for years (I found this 12 or 13 years ago…love it!) I shared it very early in the life of the blog, so it didn’t get much traffic at all. It’s well worth the read – and consideration, so I’m reposting it now.
I found this quote in a long-time favorite devotional book, His Victorious Indwelling. This is the reason Caleb is one of my favorite Biblical figures.
Then all the congregation lifted up their voices and cried, and the people wept that night.All the sons of Israel grumbled against Moses and Aaron; and the whole congregation said to them, “Would that we had died in the land of Egypt! Or would that we had died in this wilderness!“Why is the LORD bringing us into this land, to fall by the sword? Our wives and our little ones will become plunder; would it not be better for us to return to Egypt?”So they said to one another, “Let us appoint a leader and return to Egypt.”Then Moses and Aaron fell on their faces in the presence of all the assembly of the congregation of the sons of Israel.Joshua the son of Nun and Caleb the son of Jephunneh, of those who had spied out the land, tore their clothes; and they spoke to all the congregation of the sons of Israel, saying, “The land which we passed through to spy out is an exceedingly good land. “If the LORD is pleased with us, then He will bring us into this land and give it to us–a land which flows with milk and honey. “Only do not rebel against the LORD; and do not fear the people of the land, for they will be our prey (literally, food). Their protection has been removed from them, and the LORD is with us; do not fear them.”
10But all the congregation said to stone them with stones Then the glory of the LORD appeared in the tent of meeting to all the sons of Israel.
“Now give me this hill country that the Lord promised me that day. You yourself heard then that the Anakites were there and their cities were large and fortified, but, the Lord helping me, I will drive them out just as He said.”
Then Joshua blessed Caleb son of Jephunneh and gave him Hebron and his inheritance. So Hebron has belonged to Caleb son of Jephunneh the Kenizzite ever since, because he followed the Lord, the God of Israel, wholeheartedly.”
The whole question in relation to overcoming is: Are you trusting in yourself, or are you trusting in the Lord? If you are relying on yourself then of course you have to consider whether the Anakim are strong or weak, and whether their cities are well fortified or not; but if your reliance is on God, then the question of human resources does not even arise. If you are trusting in God there is no ground for fear since victory is assured to all who put their trust in Him.
There is another noteworthy matter in connection with Caleb. He exhorted the whole congregation of the children of Israel, saying, “Rebel not against the Lord, neither fear the people of the land; for they are bread for us.” He sought to show the children of Israel that in the land itself there were resources upon which they could draw in order to possess it. “The people of the land … are bread for us,” he declared. What is bread? Bread is something you eat. Bread is something that brings increased strength. The inhabitants of the land were admittedly “men of great stature,” but Caleb promised that they were food for God’s people. He not only not only honored God’s promises, he despised the difficulties that stood in the way of their realization…
Every time you meet a difficulty, every time you find yourself in an impossible situation, ask yourself this question: Am I going to starve here? Or am I going to eat the food that is set before me? If you are relying on the Lord for victory and let His overcoming life be manifested in you, you will find fresh nourishment and increased vitality in accepting as “bread” those Anakim that are contesting your progress. Do bear in mind that people who do not eat well cannot grow into maturity. Many people take the Word of God as their meat and doing His will as their meat, but they reject the Anakim as unpalatable food. The more we eat such food the stronger we shall become.
… Every difficulty and every temptation Satan puts in our way is food for us. This is a divinely appointed means of spiritual progress. The sight of any great trouble strikes terror into the heart of those who do not believe God, but those who trust Him say, “Praise God, here is some more food!” All our trials, without exception, are bread for us, and as we accept one trial after the other, we are more and more richly nourished and the result is a continuous increase of strength.
– Watchman Nee
May we all receive everything the Lord chooses to feed us as FOOD and be made strong!
After some time off … Wednesday quotes-of-the-week are BACK. I’m going to start us off with some of the most popular quotes I’ve shared, as well as a couple of my favorites from the very beginning of the blog.
This one is the hands-down, most “clicked” quote I’ve shared, from everyone’s favorite whirlwind of blessing, Beth Moore. Like seriously, aside from the home page itself, this post is my most clicked on…by almost double the #2 post.
And here’s the quote…good stuff, no? Continue reading
This might be the most encouraging chapter in the book for me. Basically she’s talking about finding FREEDOM from defining our worth and identity by a number on a scale (or the size of our jeans.)
Before January of this year when I really began to look seriously at my thoughts and beliefs and actions in this area, I would have told you that I didn’t struggle with getting worth or identity from how much I weigh. And I would have thought I was telling you the truth. But it wasn’t true. Continue reading